Nervous(ish)

July 28, 2013 at 11:14 pm | Posted in AdoptThis!, Posy | 3 Comments

In just a few days we will be headed off across the country to visit Posy’s birthfamily – the whole kit and kaboodle of them. My introvert self is anxious about all sorts of things – the lack of privacy (we are staying with them – C. said there was “no way you’re staying in a damn hotel!”) – the what will they think if/when P’ito throws a fit (although he will likely be so entirely indulged with them that fits, which generally come in response to limits being imposed, are less likely) and most of all, how is Posy going to respond to them.

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She’s generally pretty quick to warm up to strangers – which, let’s face it, is what they are to her. A one year old doesn’t correlate blurry faces on an ipad screen skype session to real people. But I know that they are going to be eager for her to be affectionate with them, and my inability to control her makes me anxious. I want her to be at her cutest, most charming, most outgoing… and all I can do to make sure that happens is pack lots of cute clothes for her.

I’m also nervous about what us staying with them will be like for K., who is living in her mom’s basement at the moment. C. says that K. is okay with it, and I have no reason not to believe her, except that I can’t imagine the emotions that she will be feeling, and I don’t know that, in the maelstrom that’s been her life over the past year, she’s had much opportunity to process her own feelings about the adoption.

I am genuinely glad to be seeing them and so excited to share this awesome little person that Posy has become over the past year. But also, really effing nervous.

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  1. Wow – you are such a committed, dedicated family! I would be effing nervous too, so know that this is completely normal.

    I am a person who needs my own space, so I would need to have contingency plans in place to ensure I was able to make mini escapes if things got too intense.

    It will be a wonderful opportunity to create memories and gain further insight into your daughter’s character.

    Looking forward to hearing how it goes!

  2. Hope the visit goes well! I’d he nervous too.

  3. I hope it went well. She’s darling.


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