A Slow Low Whiny Day

January 15, 2008 at 12:26 am | Posted in Linky Love, M'ijo, The Other D (Better Living Through Chemistry), The Sweet Life | 23 Comments

I am very ready for winter to be over.

I’ve been feeling down lately – not down down, but just kind of muted. I’ve gotten past the “WOW! This place isn’t my old job!” excitement stage at work and I’m having a hard time keeping my enthusiasm up through the grey of winter.

I’m nervous about my upcoming Adventures in Single Motherhood. After a nice long research leave, Pili is headed back to work. Work is two hours away, which means that Monday-Wednesday nights, it will be me and the boy. Any tips on getting out of the house in the morning singlehanded will be much appreciated.

I had an appointment with New Endo this morning: no insta-A1C machine, so I will find out tomorrow exactly how sucky my A1C is. Last one was 6.9: I am thinking somewhere around 8.3 😦 New Endo was perfectly nice, but not nearly as thorough as Good Endo back in Less Urban City, and he wants me to log. Good Endo just downloaded my meter and pump. I am tempted to just keep seeing him, but in the end I’m not sure I am committed enough to my diabetes management to drive five hours roundtrip to see a doctor.

I hate seeing new doctors: I recite my medical history and they hmm and haw and bite their cheeks and say “you’re awfully young to have that” (3 basal cell carcinomas, little bastards) and I just feel like a big old freak of nature. This is compounded by the fact that I am back to my highest ever weight, and feel icky and fat – I’m muffin-topping out of all my jeans. I need to start doing the weight-watchers thing again, but when? (see above re: Single Motherhood) The online version doesn’t work for me – I need to be accountable to someone other than myself. I know that once Pili gets home, I’m going to want to see her, not spend all my time racing off to the gym and doing all the errands I couldn’t do when she was away. Oh, and I am having a major flare up of my l1chen p.lanus and my exczema, so I’ve got red itchy blotches all over my hands, stomach, underarms, and underboobs. And the dermatologist’s first appt is not until March. C’mon let’s hear it folks – am I not The Sexiest Woman Ever? (ahem). Let’s hear it for the medical trainwreck. Actually, the reason I made L.P. ungoogleable is that apparently there are people who think it is sexy and put up p@rn sites devoted to it. So hey, some icky wicky sleazeball out there on the internets thinks I’m sexy!

While I may be lacking in the Sexy of Late, P’ito remains quite possibly the Cutest Boy Ever (excepting the children/nephews/ friendskids of my kind readers, of course).

Tiger Rider Ride 'Em Cowboy

Ladybug Ball Smiles

p.s. Congrats to Cheri, Gary & Eliana, who are OUT OF PGN! and Ezra & Jenny who welcomed Elsie Jane and two mommies, who have a damn cute boy of their own.


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  1. OMG he is SO adorable!
    As for single motherhood – I do it myself, and have done for most of my sons life, but I can’t really think of any tips except for the old girl guide motto: Be Prepared. And get lots of sleep!

  2. Very cute pix.

    As the main caregiver for Baby L, I have to plan for an hour to get the babe ready, an hour for myself, and then we are lucky to get out the door in time to get somewhere. (Being late was a hallmark of Baby L’s first few months of life.) And I’ve schlepped him to weigh ins and meetings at WW–he’s still easy to strap in a carriage, but it looks like your boy would rather run around at a meeting. Any way to bring him, then ply him with toys in the back of the room if you go to a meeting?

  3. Hello!

    My advice for getting out of the house on time (as I’ve done with 3 kids) is to lay out your clothes the night before, if you drink coffee, program your coffee maker to brew on auto, lay out your breakfast bowls.

    As for P’ito (who better watch out because if I get my hands on him, his cheeks will be gone from me kissing them off his face), get his diaper bag packed and replenished the night before, his clothes laid out and his breakfast things laid out.

    Otherwise, I hope your A1C is better than you think.

  4. love new posts from you!!
    & LOVE the newest photo of the boy.

  5. That kid is frickin’ CUTE.

    And that’s an understatement.

  6. Narda is gone a lot for work, too, and for weeks at a time, and the one thing that I have found that REALLY helps, because mornings are a disaster ANYWAY, is to do as much as humanely possible the night before – prep her “meetz,” aka watered down OJ with a teaspoon of benefiber mixed in into her sippy, and put it in the fridge, so that all I have to do is take it out of the fridge and put it out for her. I make her lunch the night before, and the SLOW COOKER is my best friend. Put everything in a plastic bag, stick it in the fridge at night, and then dump it in the slow cooker on your way out the door, and you have a nice hot meal for dinner. I will sometimes make oatmeal in teh slow cooker overnight, too, so breakfast is ready at the go. And it’s OK to skip baths at night sometimes.

    Hrm. Oh yes, and clean out the stroller/carseat/transportation device of choice at night – prep it for the day – ie: bags of snacks, fresh sippy cup of water, whatever.

    I also prep morning kitty meds at night, too.

    Mornings SUCK in general, but even more so when flying solo, so that 1/2 hour of prep at night makes it SO much easier in the am.

    As for winter blub, I have resigned myself to not counting my points from Thanksgiving through new years. I honestly didn’t track for that whole tiem, gained about 6 pounds, and only started tracking again last week. And lost 1.8. So maybe you can start small, by just tracking your points, to get you back in the groove, and then as things even out a bit, you can ramp it up, so to speak. For example, Narda’s on winter break right now, and could totally take and pick up Malka from daycare, but I know I NEED that mile long walk home each night, so I still pick her up, even though I don’t have to. I haven’t been to the gym on a regular basis since Malka came into our lives. Honestly. I just try to walk more. And for now, that’s enough. I’m sure it’s harder to do in a car-culture city, but it is more urban, so perhaps?

    And so sorry about all of the skin yuckiness – and EWWW that there’s p0rn sites about it. EWWWWW!

  7. Wow! You have a lot going on. Don’t be so hard on yourself, but remember that taking care of you is also taking care of baby!

    He is gorgeous!!

  8. I have no suggestions on the single motherhood stuff. However, as you know, we’re on WW, doing Core. My doctor is incredibly happy with our results. Whole grains, lots of fruits & veggies, lean stuff. We’ve been doing really well with it, too.

    Happy to help you wherever I can.

  9. Single motherhood – get things ready the night before.
    Yep – I think your guy ranks way up there on the cutest-boy-ever list. 🙂
    Kerri and Ruby


    I second the suggestion above to lay out clothes (for you AND him) and generally plan ahead. Plan out meals, grocery shop on-line if available, make lists, etc.

    My cousin has spent a lot of time single mothering because her husband is career military and deployed to war zones for months at a time. Her suggestion: “Get the kids bathed and dressed for school the night before.” When I asked her if she misspoke, she confirmed that she indeed puts them to bed in their school clothes, so they’re ready to go the next day.

  11. just try to slow down and enjoy the time with him–I enjoy my solo parenting gigs much more if I can just pay attention to Curious Girl and not be trying to simultaneously write a memo while cooking dinner and helping her play a game. Night-before-prep is good, having dinner plans that require little work (very simple meals, leftovers, soup you cook on the weekend and just reheat, whatever), and having a kind of routine might also help.

    Sorry about the medical trainwreck stuff.

    And he IS totally the cutest boy ever.

  12. As a mother of a son, yes, yours is particularly cute. My goodness, he is irresistable.

    I don’t go 3 days alone with a babe, but do two all morning/ day alone, and as mentioned before, the half hour of prep the night before is key. We have ONE ziploc of daytime food to grab in the mornings (string cheese, tofu pups cut up, a snack bag full of fruit, an apple, a banana, and a tupperware of carbs) and the bag is packed. B’fast is already prepped – cereal, oatmeal, whatever, just DON”T chance his jammies until after he eats. Then you don’t have to sweat the slop of a messy b’fast. Also, leave yourself time to get up and sweep the car if snow has fallen. I hate that part when H-mama can’t do it.

  13. Oh he ia growing so fast! And, I love his Beatles haircut!

  14. oh my, the cute.
    I don’t know what to say about the single-mom-hood, except that the days I have Squeak 9-5, I have to make plans and not expect much to get done, or I drive myself crazy. Is he sleeping through the night, mostly? You have to set aside some relaxing time for yourself, maybe after you prep for the morning (love that idea).

    Let me know if we can be of any help. One of us could come over and hang with you and P’ito after work, just to have another adult around.

  15. (pats chair beside her)

    Let’s you and me sit down sometime and talk about this single mom thing, ok?

    A) Figure out a schedule.

    B) Stick to it.

  16. Okay, first, Pepito is totally adorable. 🙂
    Second, on the endo and A1c thing… I hate to log, too, but my A1c is truly better when I do, so I do it faithfully (except for the few days break I give myself after an appointmet). Oh, and one of the other endos at the center I go to is doing some new study on diabetes and yoga, and even though I’m an exercise-avoider who’s strapped for time, I’m trying to start to work some yoga in, with good results. Just a suggestion! Hang in there!

  17. Hi there. I really identified with your post, especially when it comes to winter blues & winter pounds! I have just been trying a simple diet & exercise plan at home, but I use a lot of online resources for inspiration. I’ve found the monthly seminars at http://www.fit4d.com are really good. They’re not always about diet & exercise, but always related to diabetes management somehow. There was one on yoga & diabetes a few months ago actually. I’ve started going to a yoga class and I really do think it helps.
    P.S. Your son is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen!

  18. ooh he is adorable. I’m floored by the weight, too, and finding it really tough to lose as i’m so HUNGRY all the time! I hope you find a way, I’ll keep trying, too.

  19. I can only echo the advice to do as much as humanly possible at night. Clothes for both, food for both prepped and ready to go in the fridge, bottles/sippy cups ready to go, make sure your keys aren’t in the trash (a favourite hiding place for my kids).

    Do you have a Y near you? Most of them have child minders available for when you work out. You could also try tracking your food on Sparkpeople. That’s what I’ve been doing and I’ve lost 8 lbs already.

    Good grief, I just want to bite those cheeks. He’s just adorable.

  20. Delurking here – my husband travels a lot for work, so my son and I have gotten pretty good at getting out the door in the morning. Get as much layed out and ready the night before as you can, and (if possible) get yourself ready before the little one wakes up. As he got older though, I would shower before he woke up, and then finish getting ready while he ate breakfast in the highchair with the folks from Sesame Street. You do what you have to. Good luck!

  21. I agree with so many of these tips… my hub travels a lot, too.

    Getting ready the night before is great, cook meals ahead on the weekend and freeze… it is a dream to yank dinner out of the freezer! Things that help you stay organized are great… but, in the end, you will have to learn to let some things go and be okay with it. When my organizing and prepping gets too in the way of playing w/ my boy, I toss it all out!

    Also, get a good book for when your cutest is sleeping at night! 😉 It’s not all bad.

  22. Now and forever you will be your child’s best advocate. Go with your gut!

  23. Whoops – that comment above was for the post about evaluation your gorgeous boy but I clicked the wrong link.

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